It's just a waiting game now.

"I may not be there yet but I am closer than I was yesterday."

         My goal for the past five years has been to move to Uganda and teach English full time. Jesus has provided away through the Peace Corps in order for me to get to Uganda. Now I realize that most of you have been living this journey with me or reading it through this blog so you know that this has been my goal and that it's really happening. It's finally reality but this reality doesn't happen for twenty days. So right now this is all a waiting game. 
"It's finally reality but this reality doesn't happen for twenty days."
         Waiting to move, waiting to say goodbye, waiting to pack up my life, waiting to say hello to this beautiful adventure, waiting to have my biggest dream come true, and waiting for God to use this next season of my life to build His kingdom. There is honestly so much to wait for many of it good, however some of the things I am waiting for I am dreading. 
"I am waiting for God to use this next season of my life to build His kingdom."
         I am dreading saying goodbye to my friends and family for two years. I have quite the squad and I am not looking forward to parting ways for two years. Especially since I don't know what my communication is going to look like, so I don't know how much I will be able to get ahold of them. My friends and family are my life line. So my life right now is me trying to spend time with them and not thinking about saying goodbye. I am also dreading packing up my entire life. I hate packing in general even just for a two day trip so having to pack up my entire life for two years in two suitcase, hoping I don't forget something I can't buy in Uganda, and just trying to fit my life in two suitcases is making me anxious. As you can tell I have anxiety, and it's major sometimes, I'm just being real with you all my anxiety is honestly overwhelming sometimes and I feel like I'm drowning. That's why packing is causing me anxiety. I will be honest my anxiety is getting better God is reminding me that I am not a slave to Fear but instead I am a child of God. I'm telling you all this right now because I want you all to realize a lot of my blog is going to be me talking about trying to be brave and moving past my anxiety. 
"I am not a slave to Fear but instead I am a child of God."
         With the things I am dreading I am also waiting for an amazing once in a life time opportunity that I can't even express my full excitement. My biggest dream is coming true. I get to move to a country that has my heart. I keep asking myself how is this real life. The five years of dreaming, planning, learning, and waiting is coming to an end in twenty days. My excitement is unreal. All I want to do is dance around and rejoice God planted this dream in me and He is making it happen in a way I never imagined but in a way that is perfect for me. This season is honestly a dream come true. I may not be stoked about this whole waiting thing. I am actually going crazy. I want this journey to start, but I also don't want to leave my friends and family and my comfort zone. But this is a dream come true and I can't wait to be living in Uganda. I hope you are all going on this journey with me and enjoying reading through my journey. I hope to encourage others to pursue their dreams whatever those dreams might be. 
"The five years of dreaming, planning, learning, and waiting is coming to an end in twenty days. My excitement is unreal. All I want to do is dance around and rejoice God planted this dream in me and He is making it happen in a way I never imagined but in a way that is perfect for me."

         If you are struggling with fear and anxiety, please be reminded that YOU are a CHILD of GOD! YOU are NOT a SLAVE to FEAR! Stand tall in that, believe in the life Jesus has for you, believe in who He sees you as because that is strong, brave, worthy, and beautiful. If you are in a season of waiting know that Jesus is molding you, shaping you, and getting you ready for His next adventure for your life. Enjoy your season of waiting, trust in what He has for you and dream for a big future. 


Goodbye for Now,
XOXO Chantelle


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