An Accidental Life of Discontentment.

Why am I discontent?  

         I got my hair done yesterday, because I was going crazy and needed something new. I know what you are thinking, what does that have to do about anything? Well getting my hair cut, brought me to think about how much I have changed my hair recently. Five times in the past five months to be exact. Four of which were in a months time. As I continued to ponder on this I started to think about why I was changing my hair so much and I realized that it's because I am discontent with my life and I needed to change something and the easiest thing for me to change is my hair. This got me thinking about why I am so discontent with my life. Which is what I really want to touch on with today's blog post.
"Discontentment: the act of not being satisfied. in my case it refers to being unsatisfied with life... But why?"
         Why am I living a life of discontentment? Why do I always want what I don't have? Why do we all live a life of discontentment and a life of always wanting more? I believe that a lot of it has to do with the fact that we are human  and part of our humanness is that we always want. That is part of living in a fallen world. I also believe that the world tells us that we need to do certain things at certain points in our life and live a certain way so if we are not living that way we become discontent with life. But why do we have to live the way the world tells us to. Why does what the world says matter so much? What does the world know? I mean honestly the world tells women to look a certain way, tells us that to be truly happy we need to be in a relationship or be married, and it tells us that we need money to truly be happy. Well I am never going to look how the world wants me to look. I am twenty-three years old I don't need to be in a relationship or be married I want to do so much that would be hard if I was married. However, I am discontent being single because I see what the world is suggesting. And money oh money. Money does not make you happy I don't care what you say poor or rich that doesn't measure happiness. Yet the world tells us that we need money so we can get the latest items and when we get such things that is when we become truly happy. I get wrapped up in the world constantly and I let the world tell me that I am not content with my life. But why? I have some of the best friends in the world. I have an amazing family. I have a great job. I have graduated from college. And I am beginning to pursue my dreams in new ways to get me where I have been dying to go for five years now. But more importantly I have a God that loves me despite my flaws, a God that pursues me no matter what, and a God that that will always be here for each of us. So with all that why am I still so discontent? Why do I need to change so much? Because I don't have a boyfriend. I don't have excess money. I don't look how the world tells me I should look. But why does that all matter so much? I don't know, I really just don't know.
"But more importantly I have a God that loves me despite my flaws, a God that pursues me no matter what, and a God that that will always be here for each of us."
         I pray constantly that God will give me peace, that He will give me a content heart and I will stop wanting everything I don't have. God does bring me peace and He does give me a content heart! But then shortly after the world sinks in, Satan begins to whisper you need this you need that. That friend has a boyfriend, why don't you? So and so looks like that, why don't you? Look that person got that, why don't you get it too? Thus bringing me back to a spirit of discontent. I hit rock bottom and need a change because I can't just get a boyfriend because it doesn't work that way and I don't just want any boyfriend. I can't just get healthy because getting healthy takes time, and I don't have an endless pit of money. There lies the desire to change my hair because I can't change anything else but my hair I can always dye. And yes I am working to change my appearance partly because of the world and what it says I should look like, it's hard not to. But I am also changing to be healthy and to be a better me however, that change isn't instant like dying or cutting my hair. So right now I am on a daily battle to being content. I pray daily that Jesus will calm my spirit and give me a content heart. I pray that Jesus will cover all of me that there will be no room for the lies of Satan that His truth will run through me and be the only thing that I hear. That I won't let the lies of Satan control my thoughts but just the truth and the unending love of Jesus.
 "I pray daily that Jesus will calm my spirit and give me a content heart. I pray that Jesus will cover all of me that there will be no room for the lies of Satan that His truth will run through me and be the only thing that I hear."
         Change is good, when it means growing closer to the Lord. When you grow in love, grace and peace. Change is beautiful when you chase after the Lord and His plans for your life. But don't change because the world wants you to be a certain way. My prayer for all of you reading this is that if you also live an accidental life of discontentment be encouraged that you are not alone. Know that God doesn't want you to be discontent he wants you to be content where He has you in this season. Know that if you don't have a boyfriend, that's okay you still have so much time to find your match, to find your person, to find the love of your life. Know that if you don't look like the world it's okay because God thinks you are beautiful just the way you are and so do I! And know that money does not and never will buy happiness, you don't need money to be happy you need the love and grace of our Lord Jesus Christ and He freely gives it to anyone who believes in Him and the sacrifice He made for the whole world.
"Change is beautiful when you chase after the Lord and His plans for your life. But don't change because the world wants you to be a certain way."
         "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'”- Hebrews 13:5

Goodbye for now 
XOXO Chantelle 



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