Post Grad: Is This Really my Life?

Graduation...  

     I know that I have only been graduated for about four months, but when does it begin to feel real. I still go home each night with the thought in the back of my mind that I need to do homework. I wake up in the morning panicking about the homework I didn't do, the projects that aren't done, the essays that haven't been started, and the tests that haven't been studied for, just to remember with a sigh of relief I don't actually have any of those things to do. Which means for the first time in I don't know how long I get to go home after work each night and rest. I finally get to think about where I want to go next. I get to begin writing the next chapter of my book going wherever God leads. It's both exciting and terrifying. I have always believed that we are called into uncomfortable situations to help us to grow closer to who the Lord has called us to be. I think most know that my desire is to be a missionary on a more permanent basis. Now that I am graduated from college I can begin to pursue that dream.
         "I finally get to think about where I want to go next. I get to begin writing the next chapter of my book going wherever God leads."
         If you know me well you know where I have planned to go to be a missionary and maybe I will still get there... But this new chapter of life is just beginning to be written by God and the content of it is still unknown to me. I have now idea where God plans to take me serve as a missionary and that's really scary to me because living with so much uncertainty is overwhelming because I just don't know what's next. He's placed certain things on my heart and I have applied to a few things but I won't hear for a while and that means I sit and wait for God to open or close doors. With all this I have to really let go and Trust God and I don't know about you but that's really scary to me and leaves me with anxiety and with a lot of questions. Questions like, "What if I don't like where He takes me?" "What if it's not what I had planned" "What if I am not ready?" "What if I am not qualified?" These questions fill my head and fear begins to take over and my anxiety and panic sets in. However God is right there whispering: "You will love where I take you!" "You will be ready and qualified and prepared!" " You don't need to worry or be afraid, just trust me, believe in me, and love me good things will follow!" So I wait, I wait here to take the leap into whatever God has planned. I have decided to just say yes no matter how scary that may be because I know Jesus will catch me if I fall He will guide me in every situation. That brings me so much joy and hope in what He has for my life. So I invite you all to ask me the dreaded post grad questions... "What now?" "What next?" Or "What is the plan now that college is over?" I am excited to share with you what God has put on my heart. 
         'However God is right there whispering: "You will love where I take you!" "You will be ready and qualified and prepared!" " You don't need to worry or be afraid, just trust me, believe in me, and love me good things will follow!"'
        Be encouraged my friends, in this time or season of waiting God has a plan. Don't be afraid of it, just say yes. Take that leap. He will catch you. And be encouraged because I am there with you in that same season of waiting, waiting to say yes and take that leap to what He has for me. Yes I am afraid but I know He will catch me. So as God is reaching His hand out asking you to follow Him reach back, take His hand don't be afraid to follow is lead. 
         "Be encouraged my friends, in this time or season of waiting God has a plan. Don't be afraid of it, just say yes. Take that leap. He will catch you. "
         My next journey for this blog is to share with you what God is doing in my life post graduating. So here I am promising to be open with what God is teaching me and hoping you all are encouraged and gain something from what I am being taught. 

         Matthew 6:25-34 "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these"


Goodbye for now 

XOXO Chantelle 

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