37 days.

37 Days till the rest of my life

               In 37 days I am going to officially be done with my undergrad. I am going to have two bachelor degrees. In 37 days I do not have to go to school ever again. I can do whatever I want to do and I can live wherever I want to live. I mean honestly the world is my oyster. In 37 days I will have no more 8am classes, no more finals, no more papers, and no more presentations. In 37 days I will be DONE! 

           To say that I am excited it a huge understatement. I am beyond excited... Let me just soak all of this in for a minute...

          Okay I am done soaking. Behind all the excitement there is a bit of fear. With all the options I have now what if I make the wrong decision. What if my schooling was all for nothing. My biggest fear and the number one thought that keeps running in my head is who am I without school? Let me just paint this picture, I am have been going to school for the past nineteen years, since I was four years old. Going to school is all I really know. Taking finals, writing papers, preparing for presentations, it's just what I do. So who am I going to be with out college with out school? I have identified myself as a student for so long where is my identity going to go? I have been thinking about this for so long, and the answer is so clear to me. 


"Who am I with out school? What do I put my identity in now?"
          For all these years I have been struggling with my identity, I put my identity in all of the wrong things. I put my identity in the world and who the world wants me to be. My true identity will not change, it has been the same for all these years I just never realized it. My identity is me being the daughter of the Most High King. I am a daughter of God. That's who you are as well. That's your identity. That is never going to change, it has never changed I just never let it fully soak into my life until now. When I finish school, I am still going to be the daughter of the Most High King. Leaving Jessup is never going to change that. I may no longer be a student but that should never have been my identity to begin with.  Our identity should lie in being His child. He loves us so desperately, and that is our identity. That is my Identity. And in 37 days that is not going to change. In 37 years that is not going to change. God is the constant and will always be the constant even in the midst of all the change that will happen in our lives. 


"My identity is me being the daughter of the Most High King. I am a daughter of God. That's who you are as well. That's your identity."
Goodbye for now 
XOXO Chantelle  


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