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Anxiety and Relationships

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Before I get into the actual topic of today's blog I want to do some quick "shop talk", which basically just means I am going to quickly going to talk to you about some blog updates. I am still trying to get into a pattern of blogging more. Obviously, you can tell that I really don't blog all that much.  I am trying to but I am honestly so lazy and I keep just saying I will do it later. My goal for tomorrow is to beginning writing a little bit everyday. This way I am blogging each week. After my last couple of blog posts I do want to say that I am doing okay. I am trying my best to heal, grow, and be happy.  All in all I truly am happy. I have a job that I love, a boyfriend that I am crazy in love with, and of course my amazing family. The only thing I feel like I am missing is a solid group of friends I am doing my best to try and change that however.

Now, with all that being said let's do this and talk about anxiety and relationships. Relationships are freaking …

Dealing with Trauma

I have always been so bad about updating my blog and being a consistent writer. I will try to be better. As you all know by now I am living back home working at STAR again. I am doing what I can to integrate back into living in America as well as dealing with my trauma and the PTSD that it caused while I was still living in Uganda. That is what I really want to talk about today is dealing with trauma and how to get past it or at least just become better with it. 
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder: is a trauma and stress-related disorder that may develop after exposure to an event or ordeal in which death or severe physical harm occurred or was threatened. People who suffer from the disorder include military troops, rescue workers, and survivors of shootings, bombings, violence, and rape. Family members of victims can develop the disorder as well through vicarious trauma. 
I know what you are all probably thinking, why in the world is she telling us what PTSD is we all know. However, I real…

Hello Again

Well blogger world, I am back in America and I am back blogging. I know I have been gone for awhile and boy do I have a lot to share with you. I have been back in America for about a month and I already have a new car and a full time job. I honestly think that I haven't had time to process everything, but all in all I am doing really well. I am adjusting fairly well to being back in America, which I honestly think is probably because I have been going non stop. I mean I have been trying so hard not to think about Uganda because I am afraid of what I am going to begin to feel.

Here is a very quick update about my life for those of you who have been following my journey. I am officially an RPCV (Returned Peace Corps Volunteer) living back in America. I am working at STAR again as an after school teacher but it is now full time because STAR is incredible. I truly have missed that company and it is so good to be back. I am also trying to make new friends because well because I need s…

Dear Diary: A Look into My Feelings

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Dear Diary, Okay, okay, this hasn’t actually come from my diary but I am going to be open and honest with you all. I know I say this with every blog post, but here it goes again. I have sucked at blogging my Peace Corps service. I really thought that I would be a lot better about it. I’d like to say that it’s because I get very busy and caught up with so many things, well that would be a slight lie, sometimes I am just too lazy to write or too busy reading. Speaking of my reading, I have read ninety-eight books. I am two books away from my one hundred book goal. I can do it. Now let’s get back to my actual post. I have just over two months left as a Peace Corps volunteer and let me be honest, I am struggling. Struggling with the desire to already be home, struggling with that fact that I am spending Christmas away from my family and Thanksgiving was already tremendously sad, struggling because most of my cohort leaves in less than a month and then I will have just about a month and a h…

Teachers of Instagram? Oh Wait This is a Blog...

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I am really into #teachersofinstagram I love seeing what other teachers are doing in their classroom. One of the things I regret about blogging and Instagraming my Peace Corps Service is not posting more about the different teaching activities I have done since teaching has been the main focus of my service. I have learned so much through my teaching experience here and I really wish I was able to share more of that journey with all of you. Now with everything I do I can never promise anything, because let's face it when I make promises about my blogs I rarely ever keep them. This being said I will do my best to post more about what I am doing with my classes so you can get a little peak into my classroom. It's messy, hectic, and a little chaotic but my kids and I love every second of it.
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          For this weeks blog let's focus on my Reading Intervention Class, yes I teach Whole Class Reading Intervention. I do not do it in small groups.  I don't know…

1 1 8 D A Y S

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It is crazy to think that I have 118 days until I hit that gong and I become an official RPCV. So many things can happen in that amount of time and I am trying to be ready for anything that might be thrown my way. I realize that this may sound a bit dramatic but it’s really true. The Peace Corps journey is such a wild ride you never know what obstacles may come your way and it is truly just part of the journey. You always do your best to roll with the punches. Like for example, I was hoping for the possibility of extension but Peace Corps has other plans for me and I should be home sometime in March after I do some traveling in Kenya and South Africa. However, for the next four months I will be teaching, taking pictures, documenting, and exploring around my sweet little village and as much of Uganda as I can. I plan to try and document my teaching here a little bit better so you all can see what I have been doing. I also need to start planning for getting a job when I get back home a…

Boudoir Shoot

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When I got back from America I had gained some weight because of how I was eating while I was in town. I was very down on myself and I fell back to how I used to feel about myself fat and ugly. I was so bummed about that because I had come so damn far with my body image and I was going to fall back. With that, I decided I wanted to do a photo shoot in order remind myself how truly beautiful I am. I decided to do a boudoir shoot with a friend of mine as the photographer and it was the best idea for me. I look at the pictures and I see a beautiful girl even if she had gained a bit of weight. I remember that my weight doesn’t make me beautiful I am that no matter what my size is. Because of how much it has inspired my body image I have decided to post those photos on Instagram to inspire others and to remind everyone that we are all beautiful and our size doesn’t define us. I struggled with whether or not I should post these photos but I feel like they can truly encourage an…